Weight Watchers...again

I wish I knew what it was that made one attempt more successful than another when it comes to weight loss. Then I could conjur up that motivation and lose weight whenever I wanted. This time around I think it had to do with Elliott getting close to turning one and "just having a baby" not being an excuse anymore. Seeing my friend who joined Weight Watchers and who was losing weight and getting attention for it also helped. I admit that I was hesitant to sign up again because I've done it and quit before, even though I had success losing over 30 pounds several years ago. I know it works, but sometimes I think it's a bit cheesy and it's not completely my style. So this time I joined and decided meetings were the only way to go. So far, so good! Here are my stats:


Week 1: 186.4

Week 2: 179.8 6.6 lb. lost

Week 3: 177.6 2.2 lb. lost

Week 4: 173.0 4.6 lb. lost

Week 5: 174.2 +1.2 (oops!) I think it had to do with wearing very light clothing in Week 4

Week 6: 171.0 3.2 lb. lost

Week 7: 168.8 2.2 lb. lost

So far it's a grand total of 17.6 pounds lost in 7 weeks, yay! This past week I hit my pre-pregnancy weight just by the skin of my teeth before Elliott turned one (I was 170). Only .4 pounds to my 10% goal and then I'll reevaluate my next goal.

Mr. Momentum

I really want to make something of this blog, but my momentum is lagging a bit. I think it's because I have so much on my mind, I don't even know where to begin. Among these things:

• Do we put our house on the market soon and buy up? The dang First Time Homebuyers Credit extension, low interest rates and pretty much bottomed out prices are tempting. So is having a mortgage that is less than our rent in NYC and being able to do whatever the heck we want to with our extra money (not like we're swimming in it, but we're comfortable).


• Doing good with Weight Watchers and have lost 15.4 pounds as of today and have one pesky pound to lose to get to pre-pregnancy weight, so I'm a bit obsessed lately. Of course then my mind wanders to the hefty amount of weight I really need to lose on top of that, ugh.


• VBAC, VBAC, VBAC! I had a c-section with Elliott last year and the more I learn, the less I feel it was necessary. This kills me since I wanted to go completely natural and was under the care of a midwife, but in the end I feel screwed over by her and wonder if it would have been different if the other midwife was on call that night. I really hope that when we decide to TTC #2 that I can find a good healthcare provider that is VBAC-friendly. We have already decided a doula is a must!

• One car or two? We've been living with only one for the past 9 years, but having a baby and a husband that can't always take public transportation is making it tricky. I'm still leaning towards one, but every other week this discussion is renewed. :)

$42,000

This is the most I've made in a year-EVER! I know money isn't everything, but when you live in a high cost of living area and are adjusting to life as a SAHM, it starts to creep into your thoughts. Not to mention that I have a frickin' Masters degree and got into several law schools, but decided to follow my heart instead. I started a business in 2005 and just sold it this year, so where does that leave me? Will I ever make more than 42k in a year? I know I'm worth more than that, but how do I accomplish that while doing something I love (or at least something that feels worthwhile vs. just a job) and lets me focus on my priority in life, which is my family?

I think this is where a lot of my Mommy Life Crisis feelings stem from and the answers I long for.

I'm officially married!

Well, I am finally wearing both my wedding band and engagement ring again. I remember the night my wedding band was too tight in my second trimester. I could feel the blood pooling up and the ring wouldn't budge. George told me just to go to sleep and try again in the morning, but this put me into complete panic mode and I felt claustrophobic. I put my hand above my head to try to help the blood come back down and out of my purple finger. Finally I decided I would either lose my finger or my ring if I had to wait one more second, so I went to the bathroom and soaked my hand under ice-cold water and put some Aveda pomade on the finger to make it extra slippery and it was a success!

So it has been a long 15+ months since I've worn both my rings and I went a long time without any rings at all. At first it felt very weird being pregnant without rings, but it was even weirder looking like a single mom after Elliott was born. The weight just didn't fly off me like it did my friends, but slowly but surely I am finally doing it thanks to rejoining Weight Watchers (deets to follow).