Cindy Crawford, I am not

I had a suspicious mole removed today from "down there" and now the waiting game begins. I know pregnancy can bring on a lot of new cute growths like skin tags and moles, so I'm hoping it's just a part of my pregnancy with Elliott. At least I hope to find out any results before our trip to Mexico NEXT WEEK!

It's amazing how your mind can go to some pretty morbid places based on highly unlikely scenarios. Luckily I got that out of my system last week after emailing a friend about my crazy worries. My husband means well, but sometimes I just need somebody to entertain the possibilities vs. just telling me not to worry. Plus he can't relate to the skin tags of pregnancy like my friend can.

Fingers crossed that I get a clean report from pathology in the next seven days or so!

How to find direction for your blog?

I started this blog when I felt like I was in the midst of a Mommy Life Crisis, but I'm happy to report that life has sorted itself out a bit and I feel less frantic about finding my way as a SAHM. Of course I still have a desire to improve myself beyond my role as a mom, that hasn't changed. What I've been struggling with is what this whole blog is about. I thought I would just write and it would miraculously come to me in an "Aha" moment, but that hasn't happened yet.

Without some direction I feel like the blog doesn't serve a purpose and it just another obligation. I have the itch to just write (like with a pen and paper) and ditch the whole blog thing, but I have a feeling I should press on.

How did/do you find direction for your blog that keeps you inspired?

A Very Happy New Year!

It's amazing what a difference a year makes. This New Years Eve we could actually enjoy ourselves since Elliott is 13 months old vs. a 6 week old that needed to be fed around the clock. We went to two little gatherings with him and put him to bed in the Pack N Play at the second house and he went down with no issues. Of course we woke him up at 11 to go home and then again 30 min. later to take him out of the car and I paid for it by him waking twice after that last night. Oops! That hasn't happened in the longest time and I'm hoping it was just a fluke because of the sleep disturbances.

Yesterday I went to Target and picked up the DVD of the 30 Day Shred and some 3 pound weights so I'm doing Day 2 of Level 1 today after a couple day hiatus. Since we are going on vacation in less than 30 days I won't get the full effect, but I figure it can't hurt.

I didn't really make any resolutions this year and I feel good about it. Yes I want to lose weight, but I've already started that journey, so I just look at it as a continuation of my goal vs. a resolution that can be broken. I feel like there is too much pressure behind New Years' Resolutions, so I'm going to give it a shot and go sans resolution this year and see how that goes.

While I don't have any resolutions per se, I am looking forward to the following in 2010:

• Selling our home and buying a new one
• Vacation with the hubby in Mexico alone!
• Many little trips and outings with Elliott and George
• Possibly TTC#2